Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Alone

Alone, my mind will destroy me

Alone, tears can no longer flow

Alone, there is no way to let the anger go

Alone, screams to be saved are not heard

Alone, I know I am less than someone you deserve

Alone, the coward cannot say a word

Alone, the angel sees us as absurd

Alone, the traffic light is always red

Alone, we never seek to leave our beds

Alone, terrifying thoughts run through our head

Alone, all we do is seek an end.

Alone, That's how I'm going to end up in the end.

Alone, sad, lost, confused, unwanted, feeling like im losing people

Alone, like the world is moving on and you seem to stay in one spot.

Alone, In the end what does it matter anymore.



I found this on the web and it says exactly how i feel right now!

Monday, August 29, 2011

Thinking

I have been seriously thinking about going to a different church sunday mornings because im not really feeling like i fit in anymore and i also need a new start. But im not really sure i should so i have been praying and trying to listen to what God wants me to do. Im way beyond confused about what i should do. :(

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Character #4 is: Padme’s Handmaidens

Padme’s Handmaidens
As both queen and Senator, Pademe Amidala had many handmaidens to help protect her from harm, as well as assist her with functions of both state and security. During her time as Queen of Naboo, Amidala was accompanied by six handmaidens who sttended her at all times. Utterly devoted to their young queen, the handmaidens were chosen for their physical resemblance to the queen as well as their ability to handle themselves during crises. Acting more like bodyguards than handmaidens, they were all trained in self-defense and marksmanship, often carrying small, concealable blasters in their ceremonial robes in case any threats were made to their sovereign.
Sabe: was the queen’s senior handmaiden and served as her decoy, switching places with the queen whenever she was exposed to potential danger. Time and again, Sabe bravery and skills were put to the test after the blockade of Naboo, first by standing in for the queen to prevent fer from being held captive by the Neimoidians’ droid army, and then by distracting Nute Gunray and his associates during the confrontation on Theed.
Rabe: was the youngest of the queens handmaidens. She took charge of the queens wardrobe and prepared her elaborate hairstyles.
Eirtae: specialty was royal protocol, having been raised by wealthy parents who schooled her in the nuances of etiquette.
Sache & Yane: were expertly trained in self defense.
Years later, when Amidala served in the Senate as the representative for Naboo, she was still accompanied by a smaller retinue of loyal handmaidens.
Corde: served as Senator Amidala’s decoy upon their arrival on Coruscant and was killed during the assassination attempt on the Senator’s life. Padme, disguised as an escort pilot, comforted the young woman as she lay dying on the tarmac.
Dorme: Senator Amidala’s most devoted handmaiden, was one of the first to observe the growing affection between the Senator and Anakin.
Elle & Motee: who were among the few to know of Amidala’s marriage to Anakin, often facilitated the couple’s meeting by serving as decoys.
Verse: was with Corde on the ill-fated Naboo Royal Cruiser that was to deliver Padme to Coruscant.
Note: Sabe learned to emulate the queens voice and manner of speaking, and could communicate with the wueen through body language.
From the data Holocron: during the Clone Wars and shortly after. Amidala’s handmaidens served a smaller role, assisting the pregnant senator in her daily duties.

Character #3 is: Padme Amidala

Padme Amidala
Affiliation: Naboo Queen, Republic Senator
Homeworld: Naboo
Height: 1.65 Meters
Weapon: Naboo Pistol
Ships: Naboo Royal Starship, Royal Cruiser, Naboo Skiff
Padme Naberrie Amidala, daughter of Ruwee and Jobal Naberrie, was the beautiful and wise queen from Naboo who would one day become Anakin Skywalker’s wife and mother of their two children, Luke and Leia. Padme career as a ruler started early: She became queen of Naboo at the tender age of 14 and fought valiantly against the invading Trade Federation for the liberation of her planet. It was shortly before the battle of Theed that she became acquainted with the Jedi.
Master Qui-Gon Jinn, His padawan Obi-Wan Kenobi, and their 10 year old charge, Anakin Skywalker.
After her term as queen, Padme was asked to remain active in the political sphere by becoming Senator of Naboo. When she became the target for assassination by the grudge carrying viceroy Nute Gunray of the Trade Federation, she found herself under the protection of Anakin Skywalker , now grown, whom she had not seen for almost 10 years. The two resumed their friendship , though it was clear that Anakin was in love with her. Padme, confused and conflicted, and understanding full well that falling in love was not an option for Jedi Kinghts, spurned his affections until she realized she could no longer hide her feelings. After fighting bravely by Anakin’s side in the battle of Geonosis, and caring for him during his recovery afterward, Padme married Anakin in secret on Naboo. When Anakin left to fight in the Clone Wars, Padme continued to pursue peaceful options for ending the war in the senate.
It was towards the end of the Clone Wars when Padme, now pregnant, had to deal with the devastating realization that Anakin was turning to the dark side. Refusing to believe the worst of the accusations against him, Padme was desperate to save her husband, and traveled to Mustafar to plead with him to be once again the good man he was. Anakin, however, grew enraged when he saw Obi-Wan emerge fro her ship, thinking Padme had betrayed him. In a fit of uncontrollable fury, he used the Force to choke her until she fell to the ground unconscious.
Obi-Wan took the dying Padme to the remote asteroid of Polis Massa, where she gave birth to twins Luke and Leia. Before dying, she told Obi-Wan that she still believed there was good in Anakin. Sadly, she would never know that her children would one day prove her right!
Note: From The Data Holocron: Funeral services for Padme were held on Naboo. Her open casket was drawn by white horselike creatures, and her hands clutched the japor that Anakin had given her when he was a small boy!

Character #2 is: Luminara Unduli

Luminara Unduli
Affiliation: Jedi Order
Homeworld: Mirial
Height: 1.7 meters
Weapon: Green Bladed Lightsaber
Luminara Unduli was a faithful and dedicated Jedi Master in the final years of the old republic. A mirialan from the planet Mirial, Luminara sported patterned tattoos denoting her dedication yo physical disciplines. Years of intense training had increased the flexibility of her joints to allow tremendous agility in combat. Her extreme lightsaber moves were virtually impossible for humanoid Jedi to pull off, and turned her body itself into a weapon of stealth and strength. Luminara’s padawan, Barriss Offee, was also a Mirialan. Together. The two used the force to synchronized their lightsaber movements and work perfectly in tandem, making the pair more powerful as a unit thank either would be by herself. Barriss stayed close to her mentor’s side whether during important meetings with the supreme chancellor, or in the thick of combat, as during the outbreak of the Clone Wars.
Both Luminara and Barriss were part of the Jedi task force that was sent to the Geonosian execution arena, distinguishing themselves with their amazing lightsaber skills.
Luminara was killed shortly after the battle of Kashyyyk and Barriss was killed by an AT-TE on Felucia. Both were victims of Emperor Palpatine’s Order 66.
Note: From the Data Holocron: Both Luminara and Barriss were masters of Form 3 lightsaber combat, though Luminara was also skilled in Form 4.
Mirial was a cold, desert world just off the Hydian Way between Yavin and Almania. The Mirialans had a rich culture with religious beliefs based on a primitive understanding of the unifying Force.

Character #1 is: Aayla Secura

Aayla Secura, a Twi’lek, was highly empathetic, intelligent, and seemingly devoid of anger.
Affiliation: Jedi Order
Homeworld: Ryloth
Height: 1.78 meters
Weapon: Blue-Bladed Lightsaber
Known for her empathy and intelligence, Aayla Secura was a gifted Jedi Knight and general during the clone wars. Athletic, strong, and graceful, the blue beauty- like most Twi’leks- was a pacifist, preferring shrewd diplomacy over violence, using lightsaber purly as a weapon of defense.
Discovered by Jedi Knight Quinlan Vos on her homeworld of Ryloth. Aayla was taken to Coruscant to begin her training as his Padawan. Under Quinlan’s influence, she briefly flirted with the darkside of the force on planet Kiffex. Both Quinlan and Aayla were brought back to the light side, though, and eventually Aayla became a full- fledged Jedi Knight.
Aayla was one of the few Jedi to master the use of Force cloaking, the ability to make oneself imperceptible to sight, sound, or smell. Requiring great concentration, this was a useful weapon for a Jedi in combat, though if the Jedi moved even the slightest bit, their concentration, and the cloak would be broken.
Aayla was among the two hundred Jedi comprising the task force sent to Geonosis to rescue Anakin Skywalker, Obi- Wan Kenobi, and Senator Padme Amidala from Count Dooku and his droid army. Among the few who survived that battle, Aayla used her Jar’Kai lightsaber technique to great advantage in the Geonosian arena.
Afterward, she led many campaigns as a general in the Clone Wars, and was part of missions to Corellia, Kamino, and Hypori, to name a few.
Toward the end of the Clone Wars, Aayla was assigned to the colorful jungle planet of Felucia. There, as she trudged through the underbrush leading a regiment of Star Corps Clone Troopers, she was betrayed after the execution of Order66: shot in the back by the very troopers who had served her so loyally for three years. It was said that the clone troopers, inasmuch as they were able to grieve, hoped her death was as quick and painless as possible.
*note: From the Data Holocron: Jar’Kai was the traditional name applied to the style of lightsaber combat that used a blade in each hand.
*note: From the Data Holocron: Twi’leks had duel head-tails on their heads called lekku. Also known as “tchin-tchun,” these were used by Twi’leks to send messages to each other, serving both sensual and cognitive functions.