What To Do? O_o

Sleep evaded me yet again last night. I was staring at the ceiling until 3am. When I was able to get to sleep I had nightmares so I didn’t sleep well. This is the 3rd week in a row that I haven’t slept well. Part of the problem is my mind won’t shut up. I am trying to decide whether or not it would be a good idea for me to move to AZ it would give me the chance to start over with a clean slate, but I would be walking away from an awesome job and friends. I’m trying to weigh the Pros and Cons. Part of me wants to move but the other part doesn’t want to move away. Like I said before about 6months ago my life was turned upside down and shaken and it has stayed that way. I’m going down to AZ to visit Feb 20th- 24th part of me is excited and the other part of me doesn’t want to go. I also have been depressed because my mind knows the right course of action but my heart doesn’t want to take that action so I have been fighting a battle that I know I can’t win. I need support and prayer and my friends. This is the biggest and toughest decision I have ever had to make. I’m scared.

Shut Up Mind!!!

GGGGRRRRR! Its 2:14am on Monday morning. I cant get to sleep i have been trying to get to sleep for the last 3hours. I haven't been able to get a good night rest for the last 2weeks. I cant get my mind to shut up. I just need to come to the realization that i cant change anything so i know i should just deal with it but my mind wont give in. I have been praying reading the bible and others have been praying for me. What do i do now im at my wits end im tired and very very very confused about life and what i should do. I feel like curling up into a ball and cry and feel like hiding from the world so nothing can get me. I know that wont help but it might make me feel better. Why is life so freaken confusing??

God Is Great!

Happy Moments, Praise God

Difficult Moments, Seek God

Quiet Moments, Worship God

Painful Moments, Trust God

Every Moment, Thank God!

What do u guys think?

OK i think it would be fun to post Random Facts of the day everyday. What do u think give me feedback.

What To Do! Confused!

I talked to my father this morning on the phone and i couldn't hold it in anymore i broke down and cried. Lets just say im torn about this whole thing thats going on. Im going to AZ Feb 20th- 24th to go visit. Im way confused about what i should do i really don't like change. I need prayer!

Just when you think you are finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel...BAM! You get sucker-punched and knocked back out :-/

When she was starting to think everything was coming together... it fell apart

so confused don't know what to do bout anything anymore wish i were five years old again things were so much freakin easier

Wonders if the puzzle pieces of her life are even meant to go back together...

I'm not here for you to understand, I'm hear to confuse the hell out of you each and every day and I'm so good at it too...

The happier and more cheerful someone is on the outside, the sadder and more confused they are on the inside.

*~* I am torn between a rock and a hard place my mind is in a thousand places and I just don't know what to think anymore!*~*

I found these sentences on Status Shuffle on Facebook and i feel like they fit the situation.

May Not Know

I don’t know how many of you know this but about 6 to 7 months ago my life was turned upside down and shaken and it has stayed that way ever since. Just letting you know if my dad moves to AZ well I will be moving as well. Just pray for me because I have some major decisions to sort through and that is why I have been so grumpy/ stand offish/ unwilling to talk. Its not you guys its just what im going through right now I just wish the world would stop spinning 100miles per minute to let me off I just want the old days back when your biggest decisions was to go outside and play or stay inside and watch tv. I just need prayer and people to encourage me because im scared. This the first time I have admitted that.

Whoa

I think i need to start back up on blogging... So i think i might post one once a week from now on.